MY NAME IS JENNAH. I WAS RAPED BY MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER, NORMAN, WHEN I WAS 18YRS OLD. I AM NOT GOING INTO DETAILS AS I BELIEVE THEY ARE UNNECESSARY AND IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW MORE YOU CAN EMAIL ME AT jennah_z@yahoo. com. HE WAS CONVICTED OF 2ND DEGREE SEXUAL ASSAULT OF A MINOR AND INCEST.... I HAVE CALLED THE PRISON HE IS IN 2 TIMES. I WANT TO CONFRONT MY FATHER, TALK TO HIM ABOUT THINGS. IN THE "VICTIMS RIGHTS" I HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO. THE FIRST TIME I CALLED THE PERSON (A WOMAN) I TALKED TO TREATED ME LIKE THE BAD GUY! I FELT AS IF I WAS DOING WRONG TRYING TO GET MEDICAL INFORMATION FOR MY HEALTH. WHEN I ASKED IF I WOULD BE ABLE TO TALK TO MY FATHER SHE TOLD ME IT WOULDN'T BE GOOD FOR ME. HOW DOES SHE KNOW WHAT I NEED? I HAD NEVER MET HER. I WANT CLOSURE. THAT TOTALLY UPSET ME. THEY WERE ALSO CONCERNED ABOUT HIS REHABILITATION. ....WHAT THE HELL? SHOULDN'T THEY BE CONCERNED ABOUT THE VICTIM FIRST? THESE RAPISTS HURT OTHERS, POSSIBLY MAKING THEIR LIFE HELL FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. MAKING THEM LIVE WITH FEARS, AND NIGHTMARES. I DON'T THINK THEY SHOULD COME FIRST! I THINK THE VICTIM SHOULD. THE SECOND TIME I PHONED THE PRISON I GOT A VOICE MAIL PRESSED SO I PRESSED 0 FOR AN EMERGENCY ,THEY THEN TRANSFERRED ME TO ANOTHER VOICE MAIL. I AGAIN PRESSED 0 (FOR AN EMERGENCY) ONE MORE TIME AND I WAS TRANSFERRED TO A GUARD HE ASKED IF IT WAS IMPORTANT, I SAID YES, HE TOLD ME HE WOULD GET SOMEONE FOR ME IMMEDIATELY. AND I WAITED ON HOLD FOR ABOUT 5 MINUTES AND THEN AGAIN GOT VOICE MAIL. I LEFT A MESSAGE ONCE AGAIN FOR THEM TO CALL ME. THEN I CALLED THE VINE SYSTEM TALKED TO A PERSON AND FOUND OUT HE COMES UP FOR PAROLE IN OCTOBER OF 08. THE VICTIM OFFENDER DIALOG WAS REFERRED TO A BARB IN JANUARY 2007 AND NO ONE EVER CONTACTED ME AFTER THAT. THEY NOW PROMISE THAT I WILL HEAR FROM THEM IN A WEEK OR SO. VICTIMS RIGHTS NEED TO BE IN FORCED AND THEY NEED TO HAVE RESTITUTION NO MATTER WHAT THE CRIME. YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO REOPEN RESTITUTION IF A NEW PROBLEM STARTS UP OR SOMETHING HAPPENS BECAUSE OF THE CRIME LATER IN LIFE. BECAUSE THERE WAS NO PHYSICAL DAMAGE TO ME OR MY BELONGINGS I DON'T GET ANY RESTITUTION. I WILL BE ON MEDICATION ALL OF MY LIFE, I AM DISABLED BECAUSE OF THIS, I HAVE TO SEE DOCTORS, COUNCILORS AND PAY FOR GAS TO GET TO THEM. THIS IS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I ALSO STRUGGLE RAISING MY ELDEST DAUGHTER BECAUSE OF MY DISORDERS. I GOT INVOLVED IN DRUGS TO MASK MY FEELINGS RIGHT AFTER THIS HAPPENED AND LOST ALL MY CHILDREN. MY TWO BABY'S ALLISSANDRA LEELYNN BORN JUNE 28 LIVED IN MILWAUKEE THE LAST I KNEW(05). SERENITY MARIE BORN 02-07 LIVES IN NORTHERN WISCONSIN (06). I AM NOT ALLOWED TO SEE MY DAUGHTERS. I HAVE BEEN CLEAN FOR 3YEARS NOW. HOW CAN YOU PUT RESTITUTION ON LIVES LIKE THAT? I DID GET MY ELDEST TIFFANY DOB 12-3 BACK AND NOW I HAVE PRIMARY PHYSICAL PLACEMENT OF HER. I COULD TAKE CARE OF MY CHILDREN NOW. BUT ITS TOO LATE. I KNOW THIS IS PARTLY MY FAULT BUT IT IS PARTLY HIS. I CANT HAVE ANYMORE CHILDREN WITHOUT IVF AND THATS 11600. I DON'T HAVE THAT MONEY I AM DISABLED AND MY HUSBAND WORKS IN A FACTORY. INSURANCE DOESN'T COVER IT. I GOT MY TUBES TIED BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BRING ANOTHER CHILD INTO A WORLD LIKE THIS. NOW I WANT TO SO THEY CAN HELP CHANGE IT BUT IT IS TOO LATE. THIS IS THE LETTER I AM SENDING OUT TO THE PRISON AND WHO EVER WILL LISTEN. MAYBE IF WE ALL GET TOGETHER WE CAN GET THIS FIXED. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER GIRL TO GO THROUGH WHAT I DID. AT THE BOTTOM IS A LIST OF VICTIMS RIGHTS THAT I FOUND ON THE WISCONSIN SEX OFFENDERS LIST. WISH THEY WORKED. To Whom it May Concern; 11/29/07 I am writing in regards to Norman Wilson DOC ID#: 00375807. My name is Jenifer and I am the victim of the crime, and his daughter, that he is currently serving time in Oshkosh Correctional Institution for. There are many different things that I need to say in this letter so that you fully understand the impact this has had and still has on me and my family. But first, I need to request some form of closure in this matter for me so that I am able to finally move on. I have requested this by pone and through the V.I.N.E. (VICTIM )It has been almost 9 years. This is the closure that I need very badly. My father has Hep C and is dieing. Before he dies I need to be able to speak with him so that i can move on. I do not care if it is a phone call, in a visit setting, or however else you could imagine to arrange this meeting. I really need to try to make him understand that he is still my father and I love him but at the same time I hurt and cannot forgive him. I need to tell him how this is effecting my family, my husband and daughter, and myself. I NEED to ask him "why". The answers he gives matters and at the same time doesn't matter to me at all. I just need an answer. I need to be able to ask. I would write him but writing would only give him time to think about his responses and fake emotion. I also don't believe that option will be a good closure to me. I also think he would be able to lie (better if he is or would lie). Hearing him or seeing him will tell me his emotions on the matter. I need to see if I can find at least some form of forgiveness for him so that I can better my life, or realize I have gotten answers and they did not help and then I can move on that way. I NEED this for MY well-being. It in no way can be anymore harmful to me then what is has been without me getting to say and ask what I need to. He has served half his sentence now. I still have only begun mine. I guess to understand what I go through I would like to explain my problems. I sleep about 4 hours a night, if that, still total. I have nightmares almost every night about what happened. I am on medication that allows me to sleep with out as many nightmares and sleep that long. I am afraid of people, I have problems with trust, I am agoraphobic (fear of leaving a safe place). I panic if I cant handle a situation (which can be as simple as,and has been, shopping), or over nothing at all. I have flashbacks-I see him, smell him. breath him. hear him-all as if it was happening again. No matter what else I have tried this still happens. I have been on medications and still take them, I see a councilor and a therapist and have since 1999. I go to support meetings. None of these things gives me the answers I need. I have spoken to my father but never really about what happened, he said he was sorry right after he got into the prision system, other then that it has been a lot of small talk---weather, his job, and his Hep C. The letters have helped me deal a little better with the extreme, horrible, hatred I used to have, now its a more tolerable hate. I just want these things better. I know they will never go away totally. Incest and rape go back in my family as far as I can find (which is only my grandparents as I no longer talk to that side of my family because they believe that my father was with in his rights.) My grandfather started mentioning having sex with me along with my father the next time he came up. I thank the lord that I was able to tell on my father, which was hard, before that happened. I believe this would have happened to everyone in my family if I would not have stopped it including my daughter. It happened to my older step-sisters and some friends. I stopped the rapes before it continued to my little sister or my daughter. Now I need my closure also. I do not care if he sees the prision walls until he is dead or is released tomorrow as long as I have my chance to be better first. Respectfully Jenifer Lyon "It has been said that something that is as small as a flutter of a butterfly's wings can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world." chaos theory If this is true, then you must ask yourself... what can or have you cause(d)? jennah Office of Victim Services and Programs The Wisconsin Department of Corrections has made a commitment to reduce criminal behavior and restore a sense of safety to victims and the community. It is our vision to: * Share ownership for justice through partnerships with the criminal justice system and the community; * Learn from the community and promote opportunities for the community to learn from us; and * Hold offenders accountable by requiring them to contribute to the recovery of victims and the community as a whole. Office of Victim Services and Programs Mission The Office of Victim Services and Programs is committed to the principles and philosophy of restorative justice. It is our mission to address the needs of crime victims, their families and the community through a variety of available services. The Office of Victim Services and Programs will assist in the reparation of the harm created by crime through: 1. Supporting the recovery of victims of crime by providing information and opportunities to participate in the correctional system; 2. Being responsive and sensitive to victims, victims' families and a diverse community; 3. Educating the public on what we do and how we do it; 4. Promoting relationships, credibility, understanding and involvement with the community; and 5. Encouraging that offenders be held accountable for their actions through sanctions, restitution and restoration. In order to accomplish this Mission, the Office of Victim Services and Programs will: * Provide comprehensive information, assistance and support to those harmed by crime including victims, their families, and communities; * Integrate victims' rights and services in program planning throughout the Department of Corrections; * Develop community partnerships to advance the principles of victim services/issues and restorative justice; and * Develop and maintain a resource center dedicated to victim services/issues and restorative justice. Services offered through the Office of Victim Services and Programs * Information, Advocacy, & Referral includes providing information to crime victims on the correctional system or a specific offender, working closely with Parole Commission Members, Probation and Parole Agents, etc. on the victims behalf, and/or referrals for other services/assistance . * Notification includes communication regarding changes in the offender's status. For example, this can include notification of parole interviews and decisions, release, escape and apprehension, discharge to supervision, etc. * Restitution includes assistance with questions and concerns related to restitution. If you have not received any restitution payments but believe that you are owed restitution from an offender who is or has been under the supervision of the Wisconsin Department of Corrections, you can submit an unclaimed restitution inquiry. * Victim Impact Statements allow victims to provide a statement to the Parole Commission Member for review prior to parole consideration. * Participation in the Parole Process provides victims with the opportunity to provide information to the Parole Commission at the time the offender is considered for parole. * Victim/Offender Conferencing allows victims, if they choose, to speak to the offender in a safe setting with a neutral third party and discuss the impact and circumstances of the crime. Victims have the opportunity at this time to ask questions and to directly express to the offender how the crime has affected them and/or their family. * Impact Panels/Classes allow victims to share information with correctional staff and/or offenders about the impact of crime. * Education & Training on such issues as victims' rights, restorative justice, and the impact of crime for corrections staff, communities, and others. * Restorative Justice/Victim Services Resource Library includes reference materials that are available for review or loan. * VOICE stands for "Verbal/Visual Offender Information Center." VOICE offers access to general information via the Internet and allows electronic communication. VOICE also offers routine written notification to enrolled victims regarding certain changes in the offender's status. * VINE stands for "Victim Information Notification Everyday." An enrolled victim may access information over the telephone at (608)240-5888. VINE is the original automated phone system that victims may continue to use to receive information about offenders. what is tldr?