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I'm a young man, and I always think about MARRIAGE.Can few married women give me some advise?

Hi, So I am now 27yrs old and currently finishing up my Grad school this spring. I have always been going to school, all my life, and ever since I turned 19 I have been seriously thinking about girls, girl friends, sex, future wife etc. ( i meant real serious thoughts not boyish thoughts,but like let me go 'do it' or lets get to business thoughts) The truth is,.. nothing changed. I'm still single, virgin, going to school since I'm 2yrs old, and super awesome. I left home when I was only 16yrs old because my poor mom cant afford me, and being together would have destroyed both our lives., I came to the US for school/education. I am christian and believe and struggle in my relationship with HIM and there is always been a church in my life that I regularly go to, and still do. I am a lot lonely and always feel disadvantaged or depressed. Now, I know I am not the first young man in this world to feel sad and depressed for not having a relationship., but lately my thoughts and feelings have changed a lot. I have a lot of compassion and love in me. :) I have always been surrounded by beautiful women in my life and have great friends, I sometimes feel like I should bless a poor unadvantaged woman from a poor country with my life. atleast they don't think about parties, and girls times and chase after all worldly craziness girls i know of go crazy about. There are few girls I like who doesn't want me and then there are lots of girls who wants me but I don't think they are mature enough, know God or have compassion or heart for the poor or have show grace and I feel and to some extend know that most of them are completely oblivious about the lives of the poor and needy and live a life of complete ignorace and apathy. I'm sorry I feel this way, I try to invite them to things I do, to try and get them involved, but very few show heart or commitment and would much rather want to make out with me. What should I do? I am in a season in my life, where I am graduating an MS degree, no job, poor bank accounts, lots of emotions and feelings over the last 10 years, looking at a scary world which is economically crippled, lots of student loans.... I wish i could meet my future wife :( and tell her how I feel for her everyday and how much i wish to be with her now. where are you? OR rather what should I do?... should I go away? travel? ( i don't have much money though), go to latin America? learn Spanish? become a missionary? sail? backpack? road trip? work odd jobs this summer? (I am not going to sell myself on some harmony or websites like that? uhh! i hate even such websites exist.) P.S: I have an MS in Electrical Engineering and 10mo exp with a high tech technology giant. Im from San Diego. Sorry to put you through my craziness and thanks SO much for listening. I love you all. There is a small group in my church. its a very small church, there are lots of new people who comes and goes. Well, to be honest growing up alone with me hasn't always been easy,.. so my small group and church had to help me grow up and see things and fellowship and encourage me and help me many many ways, and sometimes was painful. so I was always the taker. and felt uneasy among girls who knew me best, since they knew every little secret since Im like 2., and there were many whom I had crush on, who didn't want me. :( i attend a Presbyterian church :) thanks everybody. and Jewels, you are obviously a homosexual. I know and believe it always has to be between a man and a woman, like all other creatures in this world. What is wrong is wrong, and you are not going to change the truthful and correct practices of this world by being angry or irritated about it. Get help.

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1. definately get married now, if you dont snag a girl now, how do you expect to find a wife later? They are drying up son. Do your homework.
2. Since you are a God-fearing person, the best place for you to look for a wife would be at your Church. That way you know that you and your spouse will share the same values. I applaud you on your sucess and I'm sure you will find the love you are looking for, just be patient and pray to God about it. My husband came into my life at the moment I wasn't even looking for anyone. If you contine to dwell on it, you will end up settling for someone you are really not compatable with. It's best to wait and find someone you truly love. "Good things come to those who wait"
3. Thanks for your Diary Entry. Dear Diary, I'm so alone, why hasn't my princess found me... HOW GAY! *I'm a homo, because I think you're a sissy?! Go Figure, I get more pipe shoved up my tight-ass then you do...LOL*
4. Sweetie, find you a decent, honest, loving, caring, woman and settle down with her. Look high and low until you find her if you have too, but make sure she is good to and for you as well as you would be to her.
5. I'm surprised in a way that you haven't just met someone in your local church group who would be willing to at least have a date w/you! You sound like a nice, caring, giving person who would lavish the "rite" one w/ALL the love you possibly could give. Doesn't your church have a youth group of people your age that you could attend? Also, there are other churches around who DO have young peoples groups, do things together,have get togethers & have a lot of activities available to they. I don't know if you are an actual member of your church, but if not, I would go to a few different churches of the same denomination as yours & see what they have to offer in the way of young peoples groups. My church has so many functions & things going on for folks of ALL ages. I feel too, once you get out in the work force, you'll also be meeting a lot more people & possibly have a wider choice where you work. I too am a Christian, & feel there IS a special someone out there who is meant just for you. You just haven't met her yet, but you WILL. I'm a firm believer in that things DO happen for reasons. I also feel you WILL meet that special someone at some point in your life. You ARE still young, & have a lot of time left to find the rite one meant just for you. I'd seriously look in my yellow pages for some of the names of the local churches in your area of the same denomination as you are, & go to a couple services. Get their news bulletin or IF they have a web page, look at it & see what type mtgs. they have available for their members. You might just find one who has a nice size young peoples group where you just might find some good friends to do things with which would expose you to more folks your age. There is nothing whatsoever wrong in doing this. My Dad was a minister of a certain denominational church. I now am going to an undenominational church, which has "no" special denomination per sey. BUT, it is just FINE for me & I so enjoy going there. The church is huge, has a very large congregation, & has all sorts of mtgs. available during the wk. Maybe go try a few out, & make some complete new friends. God's House is God's House, & it does NOT matter where you go to worship Him. Just be patient, & KNOW He DOES have a special someone just waiting to meet YOU. We do pray for ALL things, no one knows any better than I. Pray & ask the Lord to put someone in your life or to "direct your path" & then put it in God's capable Hands as we KNOW He DOES ans. our prayers...ALL the very BEST to you...:) P.S. And to "Jewels", that was kind of an unkind post, don't you think?!